Want Me To Say

There are many words I want to say

I want to string them together

And I want to say them to you

But I just don’t know

What you want me to say

There’s so much I could say

I just didn’t know how to say

I didn’t know just what to say

And I needed it to be just right

Because I didn’t know

Now I want to know

It’s more than that

I need to know

In order to move on

I have to know

What do you want me to say?

That I miss you

And I want you here

That I care about you

Or think about you

Then again I could say

That I fell in love

Or it feels that way sometimes

Maybe I did

Maybe I didn’t

But really now,

What do you expect?

Did you think I could just forget?

It’s not easy letting go

And I know that I let myself fall

In a way my pain

Is my fault

Because I chose to feel

I chose to be friends with you

And now I’m hurting

And yet I can’t seem to regret

Any part of the 3 months

Not one day

Not one minute

Not one second

I loved every moment

I enjoyed every bit

I miss it all now

And from time to time

Tears come to my eyes

I wish I could hear your voice

I wish I could say to you

That I want to let go

I want to move on

And I need to say it to you

But I won’t forget

I’ll remember it all

And I’ll know

That I wanted to say

Thank you