This is me

I’m tired

I’m frustrated 

I’m battered

I’m broken

I’m trying

Piece by piece

It’s hard

It’s never ending 

I cry

I yell

I fall

I stop

I’m lost

I’m confused 

I’m scared

I’m alone 

And yet

I know

I’m still here

I’m still standing 

I’m fighting

Tooth and nail

To keep going

I’m not giving up

I’m breathing 

I’m alive

I’m hopeful

This is me

I love how...

You try to grab my butt

When you think I’m not looking

We can lay in bed all day

My mind calms when I’m in your arms

You fall asleep when I drive

But you talk nonstop when you drive

I feel safe when I’m with you

Sometimes I feel nervous

I felt the first spark

When we talked about home

And a silly dream of buying our childhood homes

We can talk all night

You’re passionate about music and history

Your eyes light up when you get excited

You talk to me about anything and everything

Run Away

The impulse

To go and never look back

To escape the pain

To disappear into nothingness

To leave this life behind

The feeling

It comes and goes

Pushes and pulls

Building up

Crashing down

The desire

For a fresh start

For a happy place

For a sense of calm

For running away

Trapped

Thoughts swimming

Around and around

No escape

All these feelings

No way out

Trapped in my head

Held in place

By the pain

Going over it again

Looking for an escape

Surrounded by boxes

Trying to unpack them

Overwhelmed by emotion

That doesn’t lessen

Let me find a way out

Being

I like you

For you

Not

For what you have

Or what you do

Just you

For you who are

Because I see you

How you care

How you try

How hard you work

The importance of family

A sense of loyalty

"Click"

It’s the way

We stay up all night

Talking about everything

It’s how I feel

As I lay in bed

Falling asleep with you

It’s in the way

You take my arm

To lead me through a crowd

It’s the way

You get so excited

You won’t fall asleep

It’s how I feel

When you steal the covers

Just so you can snuggle

It’s in the way

You sometimes act

Like you’re a kid

Some Days

Some days I want to shut everyone and everything out
I want to curl up in a ball and make the whole world disappear

There are days I want to scream and throw things
Where I want to break things and hear them smash

Sometimes I want to crawl in a hole and not come out
And I want to burrow deep inside of myself

Some days all I want to do is reach out
To talk to someone who understands

There are days where I only want silence
But I want silence with someone there

Sometimes I need to be alone
And sometimes I don't