Shattered

I had these visions of something bad happening

And when I thought it was all going horribly wrong

I thought of you

I wanted to call you

But I didn’t

When nothing was wrong

When nothing was happening

I thought of you

I missed you

And all I wanted to do was talk

So I tried to keep in touch

I really tried

But I didn’t hear from you

I heard back from someone else entirely

And now I know

It’s hard to let go

But I have to do what I have to do

I have a life to live

It’s my life to live

And I have to let go of you

We were just friends

It’s as simple as that

I never wanted to ruin that

That’s why I never pushed for more

So now I’m losing a friend

I don’t know if it will be forever

I don’t suppose anything is

But I’m angry

And I’m disappointed

And I feel like my world is shattered

I thought you were stronger

I thought you would stand up for yourself

I thought you cared about your friends

And the way you’re just giving up

Shatters what I thought of you

Maybe it’s my fault for not realizing who you really were

Or making you into some ideal

But I just thought you were a good person

And now I’m seeing someone else entirely

And it makes it easier to let go of the friend I had

You’re not who I thought you were

The friend I had is gone

Far from here

Far from sight

The friend I had doesn’t seem to exist anymore

Somehow a part of me knew

I had this little voice that said you wouldn’t come back

Or that I’d be ok with it

And so it doesn’t hurt right now

And for that I’m grateful

I’m done with the hurting

For now I’m just angry

And I’m disappointed

And I’ll go on that way for a little longer

I know it’ll pass

All I can do now is wonder

I wonder if you’ll come back

Or if you’ll even call

I wonder if you care

But I won’t think about it too much now