Avoidance

I think we all know it

We don’t like to admit it

Or how much we know

But we’re all avoiding something

We’ve all avoided something

The truth is it doesn’t get easier

There comes a point in one’s life

When you have to face the music

That’s what I’ve heard anyway

And the truth of the matter is

That you do have to face it

You have to realize that it won’t go away

Life is a big complicated mess

But only if you don’t break it down

Into the much smaller, simpler messes

I’m still young and quite naïve

But I’m learning to do just this

Right now I have to do exactly this

I’m avoiding myself really

I don’t want to face the facts

That it’s all in my head

I like the idea more than reality

Because the idea is usually nicer

But reality has so much more to offer

In the end I know my options

I’ve weighed it out

And I have my answer

As I’m sitting on my bed

Writing out my thoughts in poetry

It’s so much easier said than done

I don’t like the complications

I don’t like to be pushed around

I hate when people get to me

I like to be left alone sometimes

Even if it’s not good for me

I want things to be on my terms

Yet I know that life doesn’t

It doesn’t go according to plan

It gets messy and complicated

Life hurts and it makes you smile

All in all I know what I have to do

I need to let go for my own good

It sucks to realize the truth

It’s not fun letting go of a dream

But it’s just that, a dream

And right now reality is what I need

I might not want it but I need it

I’ll take it and I’ll be ok

I know that in the end

Everything will be alright

It may not seem like it right now

Maybe not even tomorrow

But one day when I don’t even realize it’s happened

That’s when it will happen