All I Want

There’s been a lot going on lately

The world around me feels so different

Things don’t seem as clear as they used to

And all I want is a friend

A lot has been running through my mind

It’s getting kinda crazy in here

I don’t really like that crazy

Not too long ago I was a different kind of crazy

I remember joking about it actually

To do the job I loved to do I had to be crazy

Now it’s different in a weird way

I don’t feel seriously crazy but it’s close

It feels like I’m falling back into something

And it’s a something I don’t really want again

I’ve felt this way before and I didn’t like it

It got better when I found a friend

Things seemed simple

Life never really is that simple

But for a while it felt like it was

And I miss that

Recently things have become quite complicated

And yet they’ve gotten a little simpler

But a lot of things went through my mind

Emotions were running on high

I felt lonely and a little broken

Then I started to find little bits of joy

Then suddenly I was worried and anxious

And when I found out what was going on…

I was disappointed to say the least

And I was angry

He was a jerk

And he was weak

I thought he was stronger

I thought he was better than that

I found myself wishing that I could go back in time

But I knew that I couldn’t

I’m not angry now

I’m still disappointed

Because I lost something

And all I want is to have my friend back