Get Out

You’re running through my mind

I can’t seem to shake these thoughts

Every time I close my eyes

There’s a chance I’ll see you

Behind these lids I close

So that I won’t see you

Standing right in front of me

Because you’re no longer here

I know you’re gone

But I can’t seem to let go

I want to so bad

But something’s holding on

There’s something keeping me

From letting go

Tell me it’s wrong

Tell me there’s no hope

There’s got to be a way

I have to find a way

To forget it all

The smiles

The looks

The things I saw

And heard

And felt

Your face is here again

Right before my very eyes

I see your image

Happy and smiling

Making me smile

And it gets to me

Crawling beneath my skin

And clawing deeper into my soul

It doesn’t make any sense

How something so innocent

Turned into all of this

My head is spinning

My stomach is clenching

And my heart is aching

I’m done with that now

No more tears will be shed

I keep trying to forget

But it’s just not working

Because I see you

When I turn a corner

Or revisit a haunt

Or just close my eyes

You surround me

Until I realize the fantasy

Distractions work for a while

Opening the computer

I toy with the internet

My profile page

I think of you and pause

Just long enough

To see my pictures

Slide over the screen

A moment passes

Before I lose my cool

Because I see you there

As a reminder

Of happier times

I want to be happier now

But for that to happen

You have to get out

This can’t keep happening

I can’t continue this way

It’s not working for me

My life has to go on

I know this and yet

You’re still here

Invading my thoughts

Why can’t you get out?

I just want you out

So I can go back

To something else

A normal feeling

No more pain

No more hurt

No more emptiness

But I can’t forget

Get out of my head

Leave me be

Please

I’m pleading now

Just go

I don’t need you here

But I can’t say

That I don’t want you