Don't You Get It?

I keep replaying scenes

They’re rolling through my mind

But it’s all a blur

The whole season passed me by so quickly

I wonder

What happened to the time?

Did I lose my chance?

Was I meant to have it at all?

Over and over

I replay the scenes

It’s not a movie

No, it’s my life

I know that I’m not alone

No matter how much

I feel like I am

I’m not

It just feels that way

Only sometimes

When I think about the past

And how much a part of my life you were

Now I just need to shift my priorities

There’s school and work

And maybe a little playtime

So very little time for play

I have to laugh at that

Because it used to be so easy

I just hope it’ll be easy again

Maybe one day, right?

Right.

Shifting my priorities…

My life

The way I want it

I have to make it

What I want it to be

And I’m beginning to see

Just what I need right now

I need me

With my head

All screwed on tight

And in the right place

No boy trouble

No boy crazy

Just me

And my focus

When you wake up

Don’t call me

Don’t text me

Because it’ll be too late

Don’t you get it?

I can’t wait for you

Because it’s a waste of my time

And it’s distracting me

I have a life to get back to

My dreams need my attention

My friends want me

I want me

That’s all that matters really

I care about myself

And you

Enough to move on

It’s not easy

But it has to be done

I’m sure you’d agree

If you ever knew

You don’t know though

You haven’t bothered

Barely tried really

So this is my goodbye